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I dont get it and I dont think i ever will. i know its been hella long but that doesnt seem to matter to my stupid one track mind...
i just dont understand how two ppl can be so close and then over the course of like 2 months its jus crap. turned to crap. its sad that all that work i put into NOT makin it like this was useless. i hate awkaward smiles. but u dont care. thats wat its gotten to. its sad really.
and i did somethin stupid today and yesterday. i looked through that damn box even when i shouldnt have and i read those damn entries when i shouldn have. its funny. i would have rather u never said all those wonderful things to me. we both know that forever is a bunch of crap and i swear i did beleive it then. i thought that i had the upper hand that i was the one who could end it at any moment and walk away fine. shit was i wrong. cause obviously that wasnt the case.
i guess we all experience being blind idiots at points. it may be harsh but its true. sad but true.
i just miss having you to talk to the most. there was just something about those convos that made my day better. now i dont really have anyone to tell every detail to. at least not in the same way.
an di hate the way right now i can only =see the good i lost.
there was a shitload of bad and i know that i want that stuff to replay in my head. it sure would make things easier. but easier is not how things are.
k i feel better. a little. bye maybe 2morrow will be better.
i dont wanna say i miss you. but i do.
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[09 Oct 2004|12:10pm] |
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"Tell me am I right to think that there could be
nothing better
than making you my bride and slowly growing
old together
don't you feed me lines about some idealistic
future
your heart won't heal right if you keep tearing
out the sutures
I admit that I have made mistakes and I swear
I'll never wrong you again
you've got a lure I can't deny, but you've had
your chance so say goodbye"
-nothing better by the postal service
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[22 Sep 2004|08:42pm] |
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The Scientist By Coldplay |
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Hey all wats up? I decided to post some MEGA-FAB pictures from cool stuff from europe haha okay they arent much but i couldnt upload the rest ill do it like 2morrow but hey theyre cool ok!
my day was overall okay...
If I could I would shrink myself, sink through
your skin to your blood cells, remove
whatever makes you hurt but
I am too weak to be your cure.
( Onto to the land of BLOODY FAB new pics! )
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[20 Sep 2004|05:51pm] |
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"Broken" by Seether ft Amy Lee (another song I love) |
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my day was pretty ok...i went to tennis practice and that was better cause it wasnt so fruckin hot all the time. yes i said fruckin its not a typo. anyways umm im hella hungry
oh yes i LOVE that song "somebody told me" by the killers!!!!OMG ITS SO CONTAGIOUS. i cannot stop singin it or get it out fo my head. but thats alright.
oh yes...guess wat? u MUST go join this coolass community, yes must. I commant u damnit. its really cool ok. its active and everythin so u know its fab.
go. now. now. now. get a move on. u wont regret it. i promise
anyways
i gotta go eat some
spaghetti! Ya baby bloody fab
bye
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[18 Sep 2004|11:59pm] |
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"only one" by yellowcard |
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AH I DONT GET IT!!!!
i really dont. i always do this. gawd i need to stop readin stuff that iknow is gonna piss me off.....
im not supposed to care damnit. i wish i didnt care.
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[05 Sep 2004|05:58pm] |
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"konstantine" |
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u know wat ive figured out? that in my love life this is how it goes....either there are like alot of guys at one time and i dont know who to choose or there is no one. its like a high and low thing it sucks. i wish it was spread out.
but anyways today i didnt do nethin my parents went to some concert and all that and thats pretty much bout it. well ill update more cool stuff later. ciao
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[04 Sep 2004|08:22pm] |
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"running away" by Hoobastank |
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I FINALLY got this layout pretty much the way I want it...thats such a feat for me. I made the background you know. and thanks to layouts4pie for the codes and stuff...
well anyways the school year started sept1st..and hmm it sucks some major ass. my classes are ok. but i thought this year would jus be better. its not ok. my friends are cool but...thers somethin missin. im pretty sure i know wat but im determined not to do go back to him. i mean its too late anyways right?
( extended features u know ure curious... )
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[29 Aug 2004|11:08pm] |
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hello
this is basically
a test
entry jus to fix my layout first
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